Eccedentesiast

I know her. Very well.
Her laugh.
I hear every day.
Her smile.
I see every day.

She seems to be the happiest woman on earth.
But I know she does lock up herself in room.
And cry while reciting prayers.

She's been strong for too long.
She's been holding on for ages.
She almost gave up.
But she ended up standing stronger.

All I know is.
I love her.
Forever.
Stay strong,eccedentesiast

I miss you :'(

I met him yesterday.
Since the last time I saw his face last March.
But time moved too fast.
And I just want more and more time to spend with him :'(

The journey was too long and hard for him.
Wrong route, bad traffic, rushing against time.
But he didn't give up to keep going and going.
To meet me.

We didn't have too much time to spend together.
We took a walk around the mall.
I kept telling him stories.
He kept listening and looking at me.
We shared food he paid.
We shared a cup of latte.
We laughed.

I could still play the sound of his voice in my head.
It rings in my ears.

I admit it.
I didn't appreciate the many times we met when we were in school.

But when school is over,
Seeing you is almost impossible.

So now,
I realized how much I love you.
How much I appreciate the little time we spent together.
How now I know how precious every minute with you is.

I know and I just can't deny it.
I just miss you.
So much.

'Cause People Will Always Judge

Just know, it took me hours just to find the right words.
Yet I know I cannot find ones.

It really hard to describe the pain.
Of being judged for what I've done.
I know how does it feel.
Vacant stares and rolling eyes.
I still remember every single of them.

I just think that my life can be a novel.
A novel with same old boring and unpredictable conflicts.
That you'll end up throwing or burning.

I had my own way to solve the conflicts, to get out of the problems and be a normal happy girl.
I'd talk to my beloved mum and she knows every single thing about my conflicts, So did my dad,
He doesn't talk much but he knows everything,
I used to tell them my problem and they thought it was just a normal thing faced by a teenage girl.

But there were always some other people trying to be the heroes.

They told me what to do, they got mad at my decision, they hated my behaviors.
I just wondered if they knew who I was dealing with.
They thought it was just a problem,and I was the one who refused to solve it and get out of the conflicts.

Sadly they didn't know my pain and tears. They told me to do things that even they knew they couldn't do.
I tried to do as they told.

But it didn't work out.

Then,they hated me.

But I keep living my life thinking,

Lots of love,
A Logophile

Back to Student Life

It has been almost 5 months I graduated from my high school.

My 5-year-student-life was tough and tiring. Probably it was just me who felt so but why should I really care?

I wanna be a kid again, playing around with my friends, don't have to care how do I look and weigh.

But I wanna skip the 5 years of high school. I just don't want to face through it again.

But it won't happen.

Life goes on.

It's almost May and my student life will begin again.

I don't know where will I go.

To the foundation or college or whatever.

It depends on the offer I'll get.

It will be fun to study again and learn new things.

But I'm just not ready to leave the house.

But all I know is I have to

Lots of Love,
A Logophile

My Smartphone!!!

So, new beginning yesterday and today, I just dropped my smartphone into water.
Ha ha ha.
Great time.
I have to pretend like everything was okay and now i have to use my old phone. No whatsapp, twitter or anything else.
Back to the old way, stick to my laptop, have it by my side since I was 9.
Hmm kinda sad but it won't be too bad.
It's time to live without smartphone. For a while.
Anyone who has been experiencing the same thing, losing smartphone or else. You may share. I need some motivation. Lol.

Let see if it really happens, tonight. Hahaha

Lots of love,
A logophile

Here's to new beginnings

So here I am.New blog. New beginning.

I had one before but it had been ages I didn't log into it and I realized I'd forgotten the password.
I never planned to create another blog but it seems to be a nice spot to pour my heart out hahaha.

Logophile? Someone who loves word.
Yeah I have to admit that I'm obsessed in words in my own way. Probably the way no one could ever understand.

I used to post quotes about life and little things that can make you happy on my old blog. I love it, a lot but what can I do?? I forgot the password.

So, Logophile's.
Here's to new beginnings.

Lots of love,
A logophile.